neh... it's not that extreme anymore
thanks dez.. for that good chat.
it's probably the fever clogging up my head...
i hope you all can see my background already
i want to rectify
but i dun have that one big slot to do it
absolut this year...
camp chair.
i feel more lonely than in foc.
foc there was a programs core group.
the five of us
i retained the same group as core...
but it's now javen and lin yen / yvonne / shiyun / and me
i have des and na.
but they are, should only do that much an advisor should do.
i'm complaining how much shit i am doing.
i'm whining
being damn sarcastic.
and i'm not that happy about it.
doesn't solve anything.
this time, they hear my call, but stays at that same distance away from me.
they seem to hear.
but i dun see them offering that help and comfort i would so happily receive.
all of you always ask me to think of the end of it, and how much memories we will cherish, and stuff like that... what do i have after this camp?
someone will see my portfolio and see
Chair: ZS
Admin: ZS and von
Publicity: ZS
Recruitment: ZS
Programs: ZS and co
Logistic: ZS
Sponsorship: ZS
what will they think?
i'm exhausted.
and i'm having a fever now.
late nights.
bad trial 2, hot sun and late winds, and air con
and i still haven't finish researching sep uni after staying up till 2.30 for 4 nights already
i feel bad playing game
i feel bad blogging.
like i did not do my absolut stuff like that.
von, dun chase me to give you work.
delegating needs planning also.
needs to prep stuff for you to carry out
need to brainstorm what else is needed.
programs... haven't we always been planning this together?
why leave me to do it by myself this time?
am i that unapproachable?
it's only being 4 days past my last paper
but i felt like i have worked for two weeks already
this feeling of work haven't stop...
is not at all that comfortable.
this dissonance.
is it because i am by nature lazy,
but my behaviour, forever so involved in the work i do
and i really try to do a lot things,
that's why i dun derive any happiness from the work i am doing?
holiday job!
i've found a holiday job!
damn
look at how interesting the job is!
one sem of newspaper
and that's after i cleared the classified section!
yeh... i'm not so slack this hol
(-_-)
how can when i have so much to do... haha
when am i stuck at home designing t-shirt and stuff...
hehehe
cheers....
all's done.
exam's over.
phew.
not too bad since first paper.
good reflection just in time.
work starts tonight again.
absolut.
18th comm
acad cell.
in time to come,
website.
file system.
without taking into account things i need to do.
personal
and i need to work a lot this holiday.
for next sems daily expenses.
i've stepped into deep shit haven't i?
last night's 3 consecutive online discussion heralds my long long holiday to come.
have i really taken a break since 17th comm started?
i'm year 2 sem 1.
over.