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sorted out all my schedule recently,
then i realised deadlines are so frightening near.
let's just say i have
1 test coming week,
1 more test 3 days later,
1 essay assignment after that, 4 days later,
2 essays and 1 term paper due after that, 2 days later,
Following week, project due
then following week, another essay and project due, for science of music
well, after that it's reading week
and then Exams!'

wow....
i really didn't know it would be so tight.
somewhere i read from, tells me i determine how busy i would be.
so now it is.
time to finally start all the revision, so i have material to write for essays too!
and let everything build up, so the momentum carries me over to the exams!
and hopefully, at least maintain my CAP.
well.... let's be more optimistic... i can do it.
what could be more bad than
physically and mentally and morally drained
back in those jungle days?

do watch out for me...
dun get caught in my anger discharges...
that is if there will be...
cos i can't guarantee not getting frustrated...
but i'll try.... not to ... hee

too fast too furious

an old malay lady asked me for the time.
10.30, i told her.
then i walked away for the lift.

yah, it's 10.30. wat is she doing here?
is she waiting for someone? or there could be some problem?
why didn't i asked her?
if there was a possibility of any accident, i might just have prevented it.
I dunno how i could, but i thought i could have helped, or at least showed my concern.

What was on my mind?
To get home.... fast.
yah it's 10.30, i just came home from NUS, after mugging in the library.
thought of rushing home to design the cover page for newsletter.
suddenly i realise my pace is too fast.
too fast for me to show concern for others
too fast for me to stop and think who ever needed my help and concern.
too fast for me to appreciate the relationships i have with others.
Damn.
should i slow down?
COULD i slow down?

The Cashflow Quadrant
by Robert T. Kiyosaki

Well this is the cashflow quadrant i recently heard from a friend.

E | B
--+---
S | I

Goes something like that.
E stands for employed
S stands for self-employed, which is thus also a small business runner
B stands for Big business owner
I stands for investor

Many of us remain on the E side, and we will always be working for others.
Some of us do get to start our own business, and progress to the S side. Here, we earn a bigger profit.

But generally the left side of the quadrant stands for people who need to offer a service to earn wages to live.
If we dun work, we will not recieve any money, which we cannot do without.

On the right side:
Business owners work on the basis of a system running for him. This people earn bigger money, and they can even stop working for a while, but the system will still earn money for him! And the system will most prob get better with age. Compared to the left side, we age, and lose our functionality gradually. Thus we can no longer perform as well, which affects our earnings and opportunities.

But to really earn the big bucks, we must eventually progress to the Investor stage. To invest your money in stuff will earn you the biggest bucks. I dunno how. But it sounds logical. An example someone gave me was Warren Buffet spending dunno something like 137 million to takeover a multi-level marketing company, which is earning big bucks.

This is an interesting topic. Although i'm not really into business.
But, we might just need any of these to tackle the world next time.

made a new friend today...
chee kiong.
he's a political science major, year 4 honours student.
taking science of music together with me.
and i learnt something from him today.

工字不出头
出头便是土

can't see the words now.. dunno why
but basically it illustrates a simple point.
working for others you will never really make a mark.
for workers to finally make a mark, they are into their graves liao...

which complements what a friend recently told me about the cashflow quadrant, written by a millionaire dunno wat Toyukushi... forgot liao.. will explain this further again

topicless

starting the blog the way some people like to do it.
i dunno how also... i guess it just comes when you really aren't thinking particularly about anything....

i am much better these few days.
After i decided to stay away for a period.
suspending all my commitments, and really spend a good period fulfilling my immediate plans.
it helped.
Guess wat... i felt much better after starting to study.
Ironically it's studies. But it's studies that will determine i end my sem happily or with regrets isn't it?
This is a vicious cycle of sort... why do we have to spend a good 1/3 of our lives in studies?
but it's halfway into the sem... if i dun catch up with my reading... then i'm going to suffer badly... affecting my future plans.
I will not be able to blame anyone, cos i chose to neglect my studies? cos i rather invest my time into thinking of a whole range of activities and plans to try to correct the image of swaps?
thanks to a group of friends, zhisheng is quite happy just doing well for his own dept...
there will be regrets, but i will regret more if i jeopardise my efforts for this whole year.

i feel old liao...
but i still got so much that i want to do.
i'm quite worried about the future actually, somehow i feel that i won't get the chance to do learn so many stuff once i'm in the society.
it'll be work and work, will i still get a chance to learn all that i can?
and try out as much stuff as i can now as a student?
uncertainty...
i must seek to find out within these 3 years....

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i having quite a mixed feeling now.
time is flying past super fast... slipping away like sand from my grasp

actually i'm quite short of time now.. need to rush tutorial...
i just dun find it in me nowadays to not attempt tutorial before a lesson, which makes me hard up on time. But hey... shouldn't my time be designated for this rightfully?
SWAPS is eating into my personal life, my school work, and leaving me no time for personal stuff. I dun have to do so much you know ... i am putting in so much effort, and hence when i see things not progressing in the right speed and way, when i see people not putting enough effort, my aspirations starts to wane away...
I am starting to skip lessons, and use all my free time for swaps stuff, but i see people going normally for their lessons, and in between can afford to talk cock sing song do their own stuff. Is it my fault that i can't plan my own time? Or simply they do not need to squeeze in so much stuff as i need to?
sounds like jealousy? i think it has similar ground.
G says dun set so high standards, to which i replied:

Gao Zi (11:22 PM) :
ha cos i perceive a problem with swaps management,,... esp this year..
we do not care much about standards...
so we are not delivering the goods man.. really...
all the stuff that we have done so far are not as good as last comm...
it's second sem liao and the problem is not tackled yet...
instead every cell is taking their turn to show their lack of depth and quality
Gao Zi (11:22 PM) :
that seriously include us
Gao Zi (11:22 PM) :
i mean pubs...

i'm definitely being crude here... but i have my freedom of thought and speech.
yup and i also told G that perhaps i should start by producing quality pubs stuff... tackle the image problem first...
I am seriously comparing on the ground of our work versus other societies and clubs.
WE NEED TO PUT IN MORE EFFORT TO OUR WORK.
but i'm losing gas already... at an alarming rate recently especially.


Yah enough of whining.
Perhaps can talk about more cheerful stuff that happen to me recently, esp since i have not blogged for so long. Time ... where got time...

After recovering from stomach flu, the next best thing was NUS Biathlon. I would love to talk about this new experience, but i really got to stop to do my tutorial. Next time perhaps.
But i must say it really tiring, but all the more fulfilling, challenging and exciting it is.
I totally enjoyed myself i would say.
Must drag someone down next year to join together.

9 Feb, it's my birthday. 22.. old already.
If you think you are old, you will feel older and older.
Never did celebrate today, although some friends did for me on fri, in conjunction with yz and TH. Yup thanks for that, i appreciate.
But because i didn't celebrate it in any sense today, all the more something more important touched my heart.
I must have received 20 plus Happy Birthday msg today. From new friends, close friends, unexpected friends. But i know i'm being remembered. People bothered to remember my birthday, or ok... thru icq they knew (yah i turned off the reminder you see) , but they bothered to wish me....
yah, it is heart-warming to know that you are loved, you are being noticed and cared for.
thanks to all of you. i mean that is probably more than any gifts that you give. Ha.
I AM GRATEFUL GOD...

Time .. time ... time .. is not on my side.
Shall i just give myself a long break and just leave things to go as they would...
nature would surely do its wonders ....
i'm sure...
but it's me... i dun want to live in regrets...